A Valentine's Day Drop-out

I am dropping out of Valentine's Day participation. I was gonna be in the race and at least try to win, but this year, I'm quitting. I'm throwing in the towel. I've decided once and for all this year is the year. I mean, I'm a sucker for love. I love romance movies, I love the white chocolate candy and the hugs and the kisses and maybe a little oochie wally wally. But this year, I'm just not feeling it. I usually get my parents a card and send it to them and I haven't done a darn thing. I haven't even gotten hubby a card. I've just been in this non-chalant mood and I can't even tell you why, because I don't even know why my own self.

I haven't blogged nor have I commented on other blogger pages and this is just so not like me. I feel like I am in a state of bitterness but I don't want to feel like this. I hope it's not depression. How can I be depressed when I am blessed the way I am! I've prayed about it, whatever IT is. I can see that I'm not my usual self. I am not as responsive. Hubby said something the other day and I just said, "uh huh". He asked me if anything was wrong and I said that it wasn't. How can I tell him what is wrong when I don't know what is wrong. My mother says that I am experiencing early menopause. I don't have a clue.

But one thing I can say is that this year, I'm not even thrilled for Valentine's Day like I normally am. Hubby did get me some perfume and it is appreciated. I guess I still have time to at least pick up a card or something. Our 16 year old asked me if I was gonna wear something red or pink on the big day and I usually do, and I just told her that I didn't know yet. Hopefully, this mood I'm in will be gone before then because this is for the birds, I got too much love to hand out.

Lovingly yours,