Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Encourage yourself

There are days when I want to just take my books and throw them as far as I can throw them. There are days when I want to set them on fire and then take the ashes and divide them among several rivers, lakes and streams. There are even days when I really wish my instructor has an emergency and has to go out of town for about a day or two so that classes will be cancelled.

I feel like I am never sitting still long enough to relax, relate, release. This semester is extremely crazy with schooling and while I cotinue to strive to go for a Bachelors degree in Criminal Justice, I find it to be extremely overwhelming at times. I want to give up. But I can't give up. I am a full time parent, full time wife, work a full time job and go to school part time at night. How do I do it? Well it is not by my own will, but God's.

When I first started out on this journey, I asked God for guidance, grace, mercy and of course favor to help me get through. And being a senior, guess what? I am still asking for guidance, grace, mercy and of course favor. I do not believe that I was put on this mission just to be put on it. I believe there is purpose in the middle of this. It's not just going to help me, but to help encourage someone else as well.

Even those days when I feel like I just don't get it, I keep encouraging myself because if God brought me to it, I am sure he will bring me through it. I don't believe He brought me this far to leave me. Even when I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel, I know I am closer with going forward than turning around. I appreciate those who keep encouraging me on my way, but I am also thankful that I can encourage myself.


1 comment:

  1. Yes, encouraging oneself is always good, but it's great to have someone behind you for support or encouragement. I am not in a place right now where I can encourage myself. My anxiety is pretty high right now and it causes a bad domino effect. All of you - my virtual friends - keep me going in a way, but I have a very limited "in real life" support system. When times get tough (financially, health, mental, kids) I only have myself to turn to.

    Well, okay... I guess that's enough. Sorry for the mini vent.

    Good luck with hitting the books. No pun intended.